Wednesday, June 30, 2004

dilemma

todae quite an okie dae.. prac wasn't tt hard, though some people felt otherwise.. went to study while wif aK.. he lent me his F.I.R. cd.. quite zai... the lead singer does sing like the one from Do As Infinity, one of my fav. jpop rock band.. haha..

as i was sayin.. there's holland vs portugal tonite.. but too bad la.. quite cham most probably cannot watch cos tml go bio and maths paper... den again.. i really haven't been watchin the dutch play in euro so far.. overslept for 2 of their matches.. would be pretty sad if they get knocked out, so i've decided.. haha.. most probably will wake up at 4 to watch... hahaz den mug abit for bio den go to sch... hopefully dun oversleep again..

tml bloody long dae.. waaa sianzzzzzzzzz



denn~ strode past at 9:31 PM
------ Monday, June 28, 2004

gp dae..

had gp in the mornin.. quite do-able i suppose.. had a constant stomache through out the whole paper.. i always get stomache whenever i feel somewhat stressed, or rushin for time.. call it a "gut" feelin.. bah.. wasn't feelin in the right state of mind after the test, especially after shawn and liwei indulged in some intellectual talk and then i found out i got the focus of my aQ wrong... cham lar...

went for lunch at prince, den went to buy another set of sch uniform cos i lost a pair of pants in sch.. felt quite shagged by that time so decided to go back home.. on the way dunnoe why got this urged to buy dis cD by oCean oh de yang.. hahaz ended up spendin the money i saved for keane's album... the album not bad.. his voice quite clear and most songs meaningful..

muz prep for chem and econs tml.. =(

denn~ strode past at 8:42 PM
------ Saturday, June 26, 2004

the computer's back =)

everyone's out at some celebratory dinner (my aunt won 4D) while i spend time alone at hoem, chillin out... dunnoe why i dun feel like goin' out.. had a holiday of mixed sorts.... spent most of em muggin... so i guess its time for some -quality- time with myself..

can't really remember when was the last time i spent sometime alone.. so today's one of those days .. well then come to think of it, being alone isn't realli me i suppose.. i'm more of a herd animal yeah? can't realli imagine myself being alone doin' stuff.. used to hate having to wait alone or wake up to an empty house... ha tt's going a very long way back.. a little bit of trivia abt me... hehez i'm very careless.. remember how i used to gawk at toys or cartoon when i was small and always managed to lost myself~ always had to wanderer around b4 finally being found by my parents..

ironically so, i'm actually enjoyin' chillin out tonight at home... there's so much stuff tt i'd haven't done online... guess it's a blessing that the com decided to take a holiday.. me was able to concentrate and mug.. muggin and muggin.. tt's e mantra of these hols. i'd supposed that i could go on and ramble abt it, then again, maybe not

jet's been playin a real nicee song called -look what you've done- lately... hehez think maybe i'd go back to work after the player stop playin tt song. then again, hehez. it's on replay. then again, maybe not.. stomach's growling... think it's time for some home-cooked pasta by moi =)



"don't waste your time on me. you're already the voice inside my head" - 182









denn~ strode past at 7:19 PM
------ Friday, June 18, 2004

com down wif a virus...
argh...

denn~ strode past at 3:06 AM
------ Friday, June 11, 2004

ode to Mr. Ho Chong Liang [?~2004]

dear mr ho,

everything came to a sudden halt when i heard the news of your passing. it was out of the blue, that a teacher like you that was so active and vibrant during our secondary 1~2 days, and it struck me especially hard when my friend broke me the news.

i still remember the days where you took over in secondary 1 when your wife had to go for early labour. then in sec 2 when you took over our class' chinese lesson. everyone had so much fun then. especially with your sense of humour. we'll never forget the jokes you cracked. the care and concern that you showered us when we were down and out. the hot days you braved with us in camps and in school events. the assignments that you marked. and the chicken drumsticks that we demanded.

so much have changed then. almost 4 years have passed since sec 2. we're all independant now. yet you had to be struck down with an illness such as cancer. it must have been tough on you and your family then, and it must have been very hard for them now too. it is with remorse that we didn't get to spend much time closer than before. come to think of it, the last time we had a real chat was over my ailing chinese composition grade in sec 2. haha. but i never forgotten the times where we juz stop and chatted about our lives in sec 3~4. yes. you were someone i trusted and respect.

i'm sorry that i wasn't there to see you during your last moments. you sure must have hoped to see us. i'm sorry for all the horrible essays and illegible comprehensions that you must have dreaded to mark. it's not too late to apologize i hope, isn't it?

i wish that i could turn back time. i believe that many of us wish that we could. you'll only miss someone when they're gone. alas. who would have know. nevertheless it is time to move on. words just can't describe the pain in my heart. we'll miss you mr. ho. always. you'll always be in our hearts.

regards,
your dearest "xiao-jie"

denn~ strode past at 10:04 PM
------ Thursday, June 10, 2004

one of my more favourite songs on my playlists... a great song for all seasons. enjoy =)

the scientistby coldplay

Come up to meet ya, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need ya
And tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, and nurse me your questions
Oh lets go back to the start
Running in circles, coming in tails
Heads on a science apart
Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
And tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start



denn~ strode past at 9:50 PM
------ Tuesday, June 08, 2004

cIp day =)

feel like it's time for a nice long bloggie... tink i'm addicted =)

woke up at 7am in the mornin to do cIp... eL's bro came to fetch us there so we saved sum travellin time... ended up reaching there (great eastern centre) earli cos i "sumhow" forgot to tell him that the meetin time change liao... had time on hand so went to hong lim market to eat breakfast.

tt place somehow seems to always be able to bring back memories. from the smelly market to the hoteh hawkers at the second floor... can't believe it's been like 1 year since i went there... .hahaz remembered that i've been going there since pri 1 since my parent's shop was in the area...

eL wasn't hungry so he juz drank soya bean, while i had tt and prawn mee... hahaz the aunty was still the same old aunty from primary one... hahaz tink that was the first stall i ever ordered from (or was it the laksa stall?) it tasted great as usual... cheap as usual... soup was thick and ingredients aplenty... hahahz fooodie is my faV =)

den went to heartware to help out with the mascot's attire. had to cheong to PS, made it there in 15 mins.

would like to thanks 3 great people, william, amanda and choo min who was enthu eunff to attact lotsa people around them. they were polite too... hahaz... den again, william ah... next time dun come late... summore nvr eat still muz give you time to eat.... hahaz oh well...

felt kinda guilty cos eL and i were shoppin, eatin and muggin at starbucks.... den eL suggested we get them drinks and we shared the cost... hahaz made us felt less guilty... they were perspiring alot when we stayed cool... sorry sorry... tolong... we'll contribute next time k?

eL left earli... hopE it goes well for him tonight =)

den had debrief at taka.

went to kino for a while. looked at the many tarot cards on display... over 30 patterns summore... but all 20++= haahz so quite ex. den looked at some books on display form the religion section... books on mary magdelene and the knights templar... muz remember to save $ and buy... been interested in the "alternate" side of christianity ever since i read -the da vinci code-... hahaz =)

went to buy a shirt at taka den left.

tired but happy dae.

tml zZ wants me to go sch mug.... hahaz zZ... finally takin e 1st step =) gambatte =)

denn~ strode past at 10:33 PM
------ Monday, June 07, 2004

'orrible day

had a splitting headache... hahaz tt's wad you get when you dun get enuff slp... hahaz went to do sum econ's revision's at jiali's hse with shawn and gang.... dead tired and almost sleepy... was lethargic most of the time except lunchtime... hahaz got japanese curry... hahaz tasted almost as good as the one my mom makes... ate 2 servings of rice and after tt... felt EVEN more sleepy... went to take a half hour nap den continued all the way until 4...

wanted to go sch to mug too... but since too late liao so went home straight... looks like the next time can go would be on wed liao lor... sianz... den tml gort cIP so going to heartware in the mornin (9 am), den gotta go plaza singapura to oversee the whole publicity event wif eL... all the way till 6pm. den tml he got "parent meet boyfriend" session so he leaving earlier... =( means i gotta be alone from 3-6... die la... haiz... den go PS mug liao lor liddat...

shag man... now cannot sleep dunnoE why... argh...

denn~ strode past at 8:05 PM
------ Sunday, June 06, 2004

world record

at least it's one that holds for me. 37.5 hrs, no sleep and i'm still going on... hehez would be a waste if i didn't even blog abt it =)

the bbq/sleepover at mich's hse was realli cool. bbq was good, the facilities were cool... hahaz wad more could i ask for? bbq was super fun. nothing could ever, ever beat the feeling of bbqing food for others to eat. there's this joy in seeing others chomping on food that you cooked. a joy so addictive that i went to bbq food all the way till the food ran out. rest of the night was fun too. too bad i had to type some meeting minutes during the sleepover so couldn't have more fun. heh. had a minor fright when there was a blackout though. no light in the middle of the night. hahaz turned out that we all went to watch the latest jack neo movie.

show was quite cool. farnie. losta colourful hokkien language... understood bits and parts of the show... thank god the subtitles... hohoz... kinda predictable though... but again got me thinkin on the dark side of man's greed... he took the right path out fortunately =) can't help wishing that i could brush up on my hokkien...

went back, slacked around till earli morn... den went to eat breakfast at delifrance... went to kino for a while. couldn't stop looking at the tarot cards on offer. $69. with a guide. . . . . .

den went to so CIP stuff. hahaz publicity for divA la futbol gettin more hiong, espically w/o a nite's rest. dead tired, drowsy at the meetin... hahaz stayed all the way till 7+ to finish up the referee's attire...

tired tired day.

denn~ strode past at 10:31 PM
------ Thursday, June 03, 2004

got my OBS letter back todae, the one that we all wrote during our solo night in ubin.... hahaz luckily you remembered to mail us back the letter melvin... it's been a long six months since i last step in OBS.... my how things have changed...

i sounded cold and tired out there, on the 15th of November 2003. botak, cold, hungry.... man those days were the pits... solo night in the middle of nowhere, with the insects and rain as friends... sounded very weak. yes. i probably was weak then. probably still am...

6 months then have since passed. i read the letter with a grin, after all, how often do you get to read a letter addressed to you by yourself? hahaz the questions i asked myself were childish i suppose... in a way i still am... hahaz... was complainin abt the food. how i missed my bed. then how i encouraged myself. gosh i still blush when i read the letter... better keep it carefully... would be 'orrible if sis ever catches hold of it. hahaz guess i'm still the same ole me. maybe i'd grown up. maybe a little =p

last question i asked myself was the story between Yuna and Tidus. how their story did end. sad to say i still dun know wads happen between them... maybe if i'd had the time, i'll find out more... hahez

oh well. better get back to work =)




denn~ strode past at 11:09 PM
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