Wednesday, December 29, 2004

somehow i've lost a part of myself as i go down the steps of maturity.. its hard to pinpoint which part of it is lost.. my naivety, or is it my childishness? i'm not really sure.. and at 18 and going to NS next month, its kinda ironic when one steps on the path of manhood when he's unable to leave his childhood behind..

i have my own boyhood dreams and ambitions.. to be this and that.. to be there and then.. it makes me wonder though.. haha it amuses me sometimes.. will i give it all away? for a bigger salary and even bigger bonuses? it seems to me that people are rushing and doing stuff they think is important, but if they really took a timeout and think back about it... trivial, isn't it?

and what we've done so far.. does it really makes us happy? the little boy in me doesn't think so though.. i'm losing him i know.. slowing but gradually.. i'd already lost part of him when i started to make choices that people would want me choose... to do things that people would want me to do..

maybe i'll walk the path where i can make my own choices..

or maybe if i close my eyes it'll all go away..

but deep down..

i know i'm a little boy inside






denn~ strode past at 1:49 AM
------ Thursday, December 23, 2004

home.

it sure feels good to be home... even though it meant a long journey on a coach that is topped off with a jam at the causeway.. ohwells..

on a more serious note, i'm just glad to be safe back in singapore..

there's this incident in the cameron highlands that occured at the same time we were on our way home... a travel coach somehow lost control and fell into a deep ravine... couldn't imagine if it happened to us.. thank god it didn't.

i'm just.... thankful.




denn~ strode past at 10:13 PM
------ Thursday, December 16, 2004

haven't bloogg for a looong while... and it sure feels wierd typing on the keyboard again! haha ohwells. this post to keep me going.

watch this space!


denn~ strode past at 10:57 PM
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